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  Saints Chosen - T.A. Moore
 
 

When the Elders drew Aine's name from the Lady's Well, the stripped holly wand dripping wet, a stunned silence hung over the square.  It was not that Aine was ill-liked; indeed, there were few in Halme who would have a bad word in their mouth for her. 

The town baker, she was a young woman of middling height who looked like she enjoyed sampling her wares. There was always dough under her nails, her belly was soft and round and she blinked at the world as if through a cloud of flour even when she wasn't working.  She was not a great beauty – not like the mayor's daughter or Deire the cheesemaker's daughter, whose father was tormented with suitors roaming his garden like so many cats – but she was pleasing enough made, with her short brown curls, freckles and ready smile. 

For cakes and bread, she would be the first that anyone in town would go to.  She could be relied on to help her neighbours in times of trouble and there was little that was too much trouble if someone asked.

Well-liked or not though, she was no-one's idea of a hero.  And with the rebel's army only a few days from the village they needed a hero.

Mayor Tiller had suggested that that perhaps the Lady had meant Arne, the blacksmith.  With his ruddy complexion and hearty appetites the towering, broad shouldered smith was cast in the mould of a hero.  A mumble of agreement rose from the crowd.

'Surely, Arne,” they said.  “Surely.”

But the Elders would not be moved.  The Lady had selected Aine to represent the village and the Lady was not to be questioned by the likes of them.  She knew what was needed.  Aine would save the village from pillage and rapine.  Somehow.

Privately, Aine thought that maybe Mayor Tiller was right.  Their Lady was a saint  of growing things and childbirth and fat lambs in the field.  She was not known for her scholarship.  No-one asked her opinion, though.

Instead they gave her an axe blessed by the Lady, a battered suit of leather armour and a packed trailbag with a token from every house in the village.  Aine, clad in her Da's old trews and tunic, girded herself in the armour and gathered up the sword.  She trudged out of town with the rising sun, waved on her way by the gathered villagers. 

They watched until she was out of sight.  It did not take long.  The trees were thick around the village and Aine's small, plump figure soon disappeared amongst them.  Once she was gone everyone went to their daily chores.  Only the Elders were left standing by the Well – three old men and two old women, all in white and with strands of holly braided through their hair.  With no-one to see them but the birds they traded uncertain looks.

Finally, the eldest of the Elders sighed.  She picked the holly from her head, wincing as it tugged strands of wiry, grey hair from her scalp.

“We just have to trust that She knows what She's doing,” she said with forced brightness.  “She has always cared for us till now.”

                                                                               

Somewhere in the woods hours later, so badly lost that she would not even have known if she'd gotten back on the right track, Aine was less than convinced  The leather armour was hot and sweaty, the axe was clumsy to carry and did look in any way blessed and the weight of the trailbag pulled at her shoulders.

The sound of running water led her to stream that splashed and gurgled along a shallow rocky bed.  Aine sat down next to it and worked the straps of the trailbag off her shoulders, wincing as her aching shoulder-joints popped and grated, and lowered it to the ground. The tokens and charms the Elder's had donated to it rattled and chimed – rubbed smooth bits of glass and polished stone glittering in the dim light that filtered through the leafy canopy overhead.  She dipped a handkerchief in the water, soaking it, and wiped her face and the back of her neck.  Then she cupped her hands in the water, soaking her cuffs, and drank deeply of the cold water and occasional bug.  With her thirst quenched and her brow cooled she turned her attention to the pack.  Might as well explore it now as later.

Complicated knots held the flap down.  By the time Aine picked them loose her fingertips were sore and red.  She thought she had a blister coming up on one – lurking under skin kept soft by her daily labours.  

Her first hero's wound.

It was somehow less impressive than the story of Hero Dumar, who was burnt to the bone by dragon fire and whose wounds were slathered with honey by bees moved to mercy by his plight.  Or that of Hero Vyr, who pushed his intestines back into his gut, bound them there with cheesecloth and went back into battle.

Aine dabbled her fingers into the trickling water.

Or course, both Dumar and Vyr died of their wounds.  A blister was slightly less likely to prove fatal.  It was not the thought of a hero, but Aine was glad of that.

She tried to wipe her hands dry on her trews, but leather was not as absorbent as homespun so she wiped them on the grass instead.  Then she opened the trailbag and unpacked it, sorting the offerings into neat piles.

Some of them were practical: Meat, spices, bread, wine and a roll of cheese wrapped in paper, a small, paring knife with a blade honed down to a razor-sharp sickle, a length of leather studded with needles, a roll of twine, candles, a flask of oil and a tinderbox.

Others were less so: a comb with chipped crystals on the handle, tightly wrapped leather charm bags, three handkerchiefs with the crest picked from the corner, an empty scroll case and a single quill – but no ink or paper.

There were also a few rubbed smooth stones, a collection of starling feathers held together with wire and a small wooden box with a single chocolate in it. 

From the village children, Aine supposed.

She packed everything up again carefully, even the things she could see no use for.  It was inviting bad luck to do otherwise.  She pinned the starling feathers to her jerkin, a jaunty touch to cheer her, and ate the chocolate, licking the sweetness of her fingers.

Oddly enough, she felt a little less hopeless once she was done.

With a grunt she slung the trailbag across her back, hitching her shoulders and wriggling to get it settled comfortably, as comfortable as she could manage.  She picked up the old axe, and looked at it hopefully.  It failed to look suddenly blessed or divine: there was no carving or etching, no subtle glow of magic and it was not unnaturally light.  Anything but.  It was an axe: the head was heavy, utilitarian steel and the shaft was simple, carved oak.  Only the Lady's sigil charred into the base of it distinguished it from one taken from the woodcutter's shed. 

The Lady had, of course, been a woodcutter's daughter before she became a hero and then a saint and then a goddess.  So that made sense.  Although, the thought did occur to Aine that perhaps the Elder's had retained the real axe for a more suitable hero and just blessed this one for the occasion.

Real or not, it was what she had.  So she shouldered it, checked the sky and set out in what was hopefully the right direction to bring her to the rebel's camp.  Once she got there she would work out what to do next.  Elder Megret had told her, whilst he annointed her brow before leaving the village, that the saints would guide her.  With luck they would start to do that soon, since she had no ideas of her own.  The last time she got into a fight she'd been ten, and that had been with her brother.  Against one armed man she'd have little chance, never mind an army of them.

She would just have to trust in the Lady and keep walking.

 

 

It turned out there was no need to worry.

The King's army had found the rebels first.  Perhaps his saints had a better sense of direction than the Lady.  Where the rebel army had been there was nothing but churned and bloodied mud, charred carts and tents and the occasional battle-dazed horse or wounded soldier.  Squads of the King's soldiers would ride or march by periodically, grim-faced men in scarlet livery, and they captured the horses and killed the wounded.

Aine stayed in the shadows of the forest and away from their attention.  She wasn't sure what to do next.  If the army Aine had been sent to save the village from had ceased to exist why was she here?  Perhaps the Lady had only sent her here in order to see this?  So she could reassure the other villagers that the threat was gone.  It would explain why she had chosen Aine instead of someone more suited to battle.  If a hero's only task was to bear witness it didn't matter how able they were.

It seemed reasonable, but terrible things happened to heroes who left their tasks undone.  Shanno of Pyrian had surrendered the Holy Objects of the Temple to the invading Barle's in the days of Empire.  It had been two decades before he was forgiven and allowed to return to his wife – a broken, crippled man to whom sleep was denied.  Shanno had been under the dominion of the Battle Saints, of course.  The Lady was gentler than they were.  A little.  It still wasn't a good idea to think of trying to thwart her.

The King's soldiers galloped across the battlefield, the horses hooves churning the mud and casting it up their flanks.  One man caught sight of Aine and turned his horse towards her.  She ducked back into the trees and ran, sliding on leaf mulch and tripping over the humped, mossy roots.  The axe seemed determined to trip her.

The soldier leant over the horse's neck and urged it after her.

“Damned rebel,” he yelled.  He batted a branch from his face with one gauntleted hand.  “If you do not meet your end on my blade, the Saints will see your suffer for your rebellion.”

Aine's foot caught in a bramble, strung like a tripwire in her path, and she went down hard on her belly, shocking the breath out of her.  Her chin hit a rock, slamming her mouth shut and clicking her jaw together, and the trailbag landed heavily on her back.  The branches closed over her.

She wheezed weakly and struggled to fill her lungs with air.  By the time she could breathe again the soldier was right behind her.  Aine sucked her already sore lower lip and held perfectly still.  A sword, the blade chased with silver, acid-etched and considerably more impressive than her axe, stabbed through the branches and into the dirt in front of her nose.  Aine bit her tongue to avoid screaming and squeezed her eyes tightly shut.

It seemed that the Lady wasn't done with her after all.  The sword was drawn back, rattling the branches, and she heard the soldier curse and walk away. 

Aine buried her face in her arm and breathed raggedly.  Her heart was thundering and her bladder felt like there was a frozen stone in it.  She closed her eyes and tried pretend that it wasn't happening, pretend until she woke up back in the warm, floury bakery.  Except heroes didn't pretend and she was a hero.  That's what the Lady had said, anyhow.

Aine took a deep, mulch scented breath and raised her head.  She waited until she couldn't hear the soldier and got to her hands and knees to peer through the tangled briar-branches.  Broken branches and crushed plants showed where the soldier had been but there was no other sign of him.  There must be more pressing tasks that pursuing a lone rebel through the forest.  Aine wiped the blood from her bitten lip from her face and got up.  The axe was tangled in the roots of the briar  and she had to wrench it to get it free.  She climbed out over the branches and took inventory.  Her hands were scraped and her knees and chin felt bruised.  It could have been worse.  She started to brush herself down and stopped when a familiar smell caught her nose.

Burning bread.

Habit made her take a step in that direction, hands going to her waist in search of the cloth she usually carried to protect her hands.  All she found was the heavy, leather belt, without sheath, that went with the armour.

She stopped, forcibly reminded that she wasn't in her bakery, and chewed the inside of her lip.  Then she took a deep breath and, lacking any other plans, followed the smell.  The Lady would guide her footsteps?  Maybe the Lady was using her nose to do it.

Her nose led her to a clearing dominated by the lightning charred trunk of a huge oak.  In the crevice created between the stump and the trunk a makeshift shelter of pegged together cloaks had been created.  Since Aine had made no effort to be quiet, and lacked the woodcraft to do so even if she'd wanted, the two men who'd constructed it awaited her with swords in hand.  They were young men, no older than Aine, but hard-faced and hard-worn.  Their faces were filthy and, under the dirt, drawn and haggard looking.  One of them, thin, fair and bespectacled, had a blood-stained bandage around his upper arm.  He held his sword in his other hand.

“Drop the axe,” the darker man said.  When Aine didn't immediately do as he'd demanded he jabbed the point of her sword at her chest.  “Now.”

Aine hoped the Lady would understand the disrespect and let go of the handle.  The axe dropped to the grass with a muted thump.  Aine held her hands up to show they were empty.

Neither man relaxed, exactly, but a certain trip-wire tension did fade from their muscles.  The swords lowered slightly and the tightness in their eyes softened.

“Who are you?” the dark man asked.

“Aine Trevyn,” she said.  “Of Otterbridge.”

“Loyalist?”

She blinked.  It wasn't really a question that had ever come up.  They were a small village and far from the centre of the kingdom.  They had a lord.  Some in the village even knew his name, but no-one had ever seen him.  His tax-collector came by at the end of each calender quadrant and occasionally a herald would bring news or new laws. 

“I...don't know,” she said.  “No one has told us.”

The dark man's mouth took on a wry twist.  His companion, holding his bloodied arm carefully across his chest, sputtered.

“Do you need to be told right from wrong?  Just from unjust?” he demanded.  “Natural instinct should lead you to the moral choice.  An usurper rules from the throne of our kingdom and the rightful royal line scrabble for the means to claim back what is theirs-”

Someone snorted.  Both men stared at her and Aine realised that the noise had come from her.  With both of them looking at she felt obliged to say something.  She opened her mouth and the words came spilling out.

“Natural instinct, my lord,” she said.  “Tells us that the doings of lords and princes and kings is best left to lords and princes and kings.  The likes of me have nothing to gain by interfering.  If the side we aid loses that we're the ones to lose our heads; if they win then we get no thanks.”

The blond drew himself up with indignation.

“It's an affront to the saints themselves that he rules,” he said.

“ Maybe,” Aine said.  “Maybe our King is an usurper, or maybe his family was chosen by the saints to take the throne like he claims.  How are we to know?  What we do know is that it won't change anything; who sits on throne might change, even our lord might change – but the tax collector will still call and we'll still labour to pay.”

She stopped the words by the simple expedient of closing her mouth.  Her cheeks felt scalded  and she knew she was the colour of a hot oven  She looked down and mumbled.

“Or that's what I think, my lord.”

He stiffened, his shoulders going rigid.

“I'm not a lord,” he said sharply.

His companion laughed and sheathed his sword, sliding the steel into leather without having to look.  The hilt clicked against the metal-rimmed lip of the sheath.

“Only a lord would have asked those things, Mor,” he said.  “Well, Aine of Otterbridge, if you have no loyalty to either side, why are you here?”

The blond, Mor, scowled but reluctantly sheathed his own sword, without the ease that his companion showed.  Now that no-one was pointing a sword at her Aine lowered her hands back to her side.  Without the axe to hold she wasn't sure what to with them, odd that you could grow so accustomed to the weight of a thing.  She twisted them together in front of her.

"Our Lady sent me," she said. 

Mor interrupted, "I thought you said you took no side in this war.  Yet your liege-lady sent you here-"

His companion's hand on his shoulder stopped him.

"She means their Saint," he said.  "Many of the border villages still follow the old ways had have their own local saints, instead of worshipping those approved by the state."

Mor's thin face turned ever more pinched and unfriendly.

"Idolators," he muttered.

"We worship both," Aine corrected.  "But we'd no more bother Saint Vyr to deal with our potato blight than we would go to our Lord to judge a dispute over chickens.  Why would he care?"

She paused and sniffed, wrinkling her nose.

"Your bread is burning," she said.

The darker man cursed and hurried back to their makeshift hearth, snatching the rough round of bread from the glowing stones.  He juggled it from hand to hand, blowing on it in an attempt to cool it.  Large pieces crumbled from the burnt black edges of the bread, leaving his fingers covered with ash.  What was left when he finished was obviously not edible.

"Damn," he mumbled, dropping it to the ground.

"Was that the last?" Mor asked.

The darker man nodded, rubbing his forehead tiredly.

Aine cleared her throat and carefully slid the trailbag from her back.

"I've some food," she said.

The look that both men gave her suggested that she'd grown a second head instead of made a simple offer.  She hung on to her bag, uncertain if her offer of food was wanted.  Mor swallowed and licked his lips.

"We can't pay," he said.

Aine stiffened, offended at the suggestion.  She would make no claim to being learned, but she had gone to the village school with the rest of the children.  She could figure and write, as much as she needed to, and she knew her scriptures and the stories of the saints. 

"I did not ask," she said.  "You are in need and I have plenty.  I am not Telemon, with overflowing fields and a selfish heart."

From Mor's expression she could have been talking gibberish.  His companion put his hand on his shoulder, murmuring something, and inclined his head towards Aine.

"My apologies" he said.  "We have been gone from our home for a long time.  Perhaps we have forgotten more than we realised of our own ways.  Thank you for your hospitality, Aine of Otterbridge.  I am Reme.  The lordling here is Mor."

He did not offer Mor's family name and Aine didn't ask.  She carried her bag over to the still smouldering fire and got out the carefully packed food.  The pie and the bread were set carefully on a stone next to the fire to warm.  She unwrapped the cheese and used the paring knife to slice thick wedges from it as the smell of fresh bread and meat pie rose from the fire.

"You never told us why you're here," Mor said, still sounding sullen  "In our time of need, with food to share."

Aine cut rough slices from the bread, layered them with cheese and impaled them on the knife.  She held it over the fire to toast.

"Our Lady sent me," she repeated.  "I was meant to find the rebel's army and stop them from over-running our village.  Only, She must have know that the army was already..."

She trailed off.  Both men had been part of the battle on the plain, they did not need reminding.  She shrugged, awkward in the stiff leather, and offered the toasted bread to Reme.  He took it and passed to Mor, ignoring the younger man's weak protests.

Aine layered more cheese and bread.

"I would have returned straight to the village," she said.  "But I didn't know if I had done all the Lady asked of me."

Mor, stomach rumbling, took a bite of the still hot bread.  He winced, cooled it with a slug of cold water, and swallowed.  Then he took another bite and repeated the process, too hungry to wait.

"Maybe your Lady sent you for us," he said through a mouthful of bread.   A quick smile lit up his face, turning it handsome and unexpectedly charming.  "To succour us in our hour of need."

Reme took the bread from Aine, wiping the dripping cheese on his finger, and sat back on his rock.  Unlike Mor he cradled the bread in scarred hands and waited for it to cool.  And where Mor laughed at the idea the Lady had sent Aine, Reme looked grave.

"Perhaps she did," he said solemnly.  "It would not hurt, to know at least one saint is on our side in this."

Mor wiped his face on his sleeve.

"Of course, they are," he said.  "I...we...have justice on our side."

Reme gave a humourless grunt.

"Maybe," he said.  "But look at us, Mor.  Our army is scattered, our enemy is triumphant and we are hiding in the forest - dependant on the kindness of some common-born...."

He hesitated.

"Baker," Aine provided.  "Common-born baker."

"I mean no offence," Reme said.

"None taken," Aine assured him.  "Tis only the truth.  Perhaps you are right though.  The Elders told me that the Lady would guide my steps and she led me here.  It would explain why she sent me too, instead of Arne.  He is the blacksmith, and would have been more suited to a fight."

"He couldn't have worn that old armour though," Mor said.  "It was made for a lass, if a stout one."

Reme closed his eyes.

"Please, Mor," he said.  "Be silent.  Before Aine's Lady changes her mind."

There was a pause.  Then Mor realised what he had said and flushed like a lass at her first summer dance.  He busied himself with his bread, stuffing his mouth so full that no further ill-judged word could have escaped. 

Aine took a slice of slippery cheese and moved away from the heat of the fire.  She sat cross-legged and nibbled at the corner of it.  Cookery seemed an unlikely task for a hero, but there had been stranger stories told.  One hero had been tasked to find the purest white sheep in all the world to shear and weave a blanket to swaddle an infant Saint in.

If she had been sent to give them succour, then it seemed unlikely her task was over yet.  They might be fed for the night, but they were fleeing soldiers from a defeated army.  Pursued by the king's red-surcoated guards, just as she had been.

"What will you do now?" she asked, breaking the silence.  "If the rebellion is over?"

"It's not," Reme said.  He finished his meal and licked his fingers clean.  "The battle was not as conclusive as it may have looked; our forces were scattered, not decimated.  We will regroup - across the border where the Prince will be safe in his grandfather's court."

Aine frowned down at her tented knees, worrying over the question of what to do next.  Her fingers rose to the brooch of feathers pinned to her shoulder, stroking the delicate vanes, and she made up her mind.

"I will help you get to the border," she said.

Reme and Mor traded looks across the fire.  They didn't look convinced that her offer was of any use.

"Do you know the way well?" Reme asked.  He got up and went to pick up her axe from the ground. Somehow in his hands it looked like a weapon instead of a tool.

"The Lady will guide us," Aine said. 

From Reme's faint grimace he didn't have any more faith in the Lady's sense of direction than he did Aine's.  She gave him a cheerful smile.

"And even if she does not," she said.  "If we meet anyone, I will vouch for you.  My cousins, from Grett.  Near the mountains.  No-one will question me.  After all, what business would have a baker have with a lord and his man?"

"None," Mor said.  "That is why you aren't coming with us."

He shifted on his rock and winced when the motion jarred his arm.  Fresh blood appeared on the already grubby bandage around his forearm.

"Let me look at that," Aine said.

He pulled his mouth to the side reluctantly but held his arm out towards her.  She unwrapped the bandage.  Under the ripped cotton there was a deep gash in his arm, ragged-edged and still bleeding.  Aine's stomach turned over.  She swallowed hard, reminded herself she had seen worse wounds from accidents and started to clean it up, using the flask of wine from her bag. 

Mor hissed as the liquid stung the word and paled when she got the thread and needles out.  He turned his head away and bit into the heavy cuff of his tunic.  The soft, smothered whimpers that escaped him made Aine's fingers tremble more despite her attempts to steady them. 

She finally finished and had just tied the last rough stitch off when Reme spoke.

"Very well," he said.  "You will accompany us to the border, Aine."

It was what a hero would do.  The part of Aine that was still a baker was not so eager.  Unfortunately, most of her seemed to be baker.  She took a ragged breath and pretended to be brave.

"It's what the Lady wants," she said.

Reme looked at her oddly and nodded slowly. 

"I pray you are right," he said.  "You two should sleep now.  I'll take the first watch.  Tomorrow, we'll head for the border.  If your Lady watches us, perhaps we will get there without any encounters with the King's men."

"Usurper's men," Mor corrected.

An inclination of Reme's head acknowledged the correction.  While Aine and Mor settled themselves by the fire he sat down on a rock with the axe still held over his knees.  Both hands rested on the carved handle.

Aine used her trailbag as a pillow.  Before she went to sleep she sent a quiet, heartfelt prayer to the Lady that she was doing the right thing.

                                                                 

Mor waited until the baker in the badly-fitting leather armour went to sleep.  She snored.  Just a little.  He uncurled himself from the hard ground, cradling his injured arm carefully over his body, and went to join Reme. .

"Your Highness," Reme said quietly.

The exiled prince crouched beside his general.  He cocked his head to the side.

"Is it really so obvious that I am noble?" he asked.  "I always thought I had a common touch."

The smothered laughter that escaped Reme at that notion was not flattering.  Mor resisted the urge to sulk - he was the leader of a rebellion not a spoilt child.  Or, at least, that's what he tried to be.  What he owed those who'd died.

"Why are we taking her with her?" he asked, pointing to the baker-girl.  "She's more likely to be burden than help."

Reme rubbed callused hands along the handle of the axe.

"Is she, now?" he asked.  There's no rivers around here, Prince Mor."

He said it like it meant something but Mor couldn't think what it was.  After a moment of struggling with his pride he admitted that.  It earned him an approving smile.

"No rivers.  No great lakes.  A stream or two, but that is all.  So why name a village Otterbridge?"

Mor pushed his spectacles up his nose and shrugged one shoulder. 

"Perhaps there were otters here once?" he said.  "Or it's a corruption of something else. Her accent is near unintelligible."

Reme lifted the axe from his lap and turned it so Mor could see the charred mark seared into the base of the wooden handle.  It was hard to make out in the dimming light.  Mor reached out and traced it with his fingertip.  When he realised what it was his heart stuttered in his chest.

"Otar's Bridge," Reme said.  "That's who her Lady is.  Saint Otar of the Axe, the founder of our kingdom and your ancestor.  If any of our saints were to choose your side, Mor, it would be her.  Our little baker is her hero and living proof that you have divine support."

Mor pressed his finger against the brand till it felt imprinted on his skin.

"So, she comes with us," he said.

 
 

About the Author

 

T. A. Moore lives in Northern Ireland, a few miles outside Belfast.  She has worked in research, documentary production and currently works in the literary arts.  Her work has been published on the BBC Get Writing website, in the anthology Barefoot Nuns in Barcelona and in the magazine Northern Woman.  She has been shortlisted for the Asham Award and has won the 2006 Regional Orange Short Story Competition.

 Her first novel, The Even, is available from Morrigan Books and through Amazon.com.

You can find her on the web at www.nevertobetold.com.

   
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